Struggling

Lately has been emotional!

We haven't been home at all and when we are not at home both Taylor and I eat horrible. We both eat so much that we feel gross. I hate that feeling yet do it all of the time. As we were driving home the other night I realized that I was so focused on calories and not giving my body enough attention. I have learned all of the things that I "shouldn't do" but I have fallen into those habits. I want to start changing my idea of health and eating and body weight and focus on being healthy and eating what my body needs and not looking at calories. It is really hard and I still have that mentality but hopefully by working to change my habits I can be freed of this food addiction.

I took a nutrition class and one book we read is called Intuitive Eating. I really want to focus on that and eat when my body is hungry and stop when it is full. I want to be able to eat a hamburger and not feel guilty. I want to be able to eat a handful of candy and stop instead of eating so much more that I make myself sick.

The journey will be hard but I pray that God can get me away from the addiction so that I have more time to spend with Him. If there are others out there that have these same issues; pray God will help you through. We can help and encourage each other to overcome addiction.

On the bright side Taylor and I went on a run this morning. It is always so hard to get going but it feels good afterward. It is getting cold here and we had to wear gloves and ear coverings today. Then I have the problem my hands either being really hot or really cold....what to do?!

Time for bed! Nothing too exciting for food this week. Nothing is sounding so great. I feel like I am in a bit of a food rut. Any ideas?